… a really long while. I have touched before on writers block and how there are times I just find it hard to write. The last 8 months have been unusually difficult. There are so many words and they come so fast that I can’t keep up. Every emotion, every thought, every action of every day comes out on paper all at once and even I can’t edit through it to tell the story. Even if I didn’t write on the blog I always found time to write in my journals but lately that has come with challenges as they sit untouched, crisp clean pages waiting for me to just write something, anything.
There are so many days I would think oh gosh I need to blog about this or that. Seasons have come and gone, school has started and almost ended; Alex’s first year of football flew by, Caroline started high school and my favorite holiday passed by without even a thought but I just couldn’t make sense of it all. Even writing about Elizabeth was awkward for me; there was just nothing to say that made sense to me. We vacationed with friends and Mark and I found time for date nights amongst the craziness of life. And we even added a new member to the family, Miss Maddie. I used social media as my outlet. Lots of pictures with a few words to justify my absence in writing and to satisfy the hunger I had to write. They do say a picture is worth a thousand words.
There is one picture that was taken during this time that is every mothers worst nightmare. When I saw it for the first time I wasn’t at all surprised, I knew it was there and had known for a while … about 8 months actually; just about the time I couldn’t find the words to write anymore.